It's amazing how someone you like can affect you in tons of ways you could ever imagine. You become more pleasant, cheerful, more caring about that person, and it could also make you insecure, especially when there are big factors that make the whole thing uncertain.

I've always been insecure about myself when it comes to people I really care for. Always thinking about what they're thinking about me, always having the need to please people around me without completely compromising myself, but still making sacrifices and going out of my way. Perhaps it's because I'm afraid of rejection - having experience that almost my whole life.

Recently though, I met someone who I never thought I would go for. My best friend here in Canada persuaded me to give him a chance, so I did. until yesterday, I was still very much insecure of myself - always thinking that there's something wrong with me. Surprisingly, he just accepts me for who I am, not wanting me to change just to make the people around me happy. I was really shocked and touched. I felt lucky and blessed. He may not be the perfect guy I imagined and wished that I would have, he may have done a lot of things that I won't even consider just, but the fact that he's not ashamed of me, that he cares for me, that he's uberly patient and understanding of people, and that he's soooo kindhearted - that says it all. I thought the other guy was my dream boy, turns out, it's actually the guy that I almost didn't give a chance to. He has the purest heart I've ever seen - which is why it scares me cause I know I won't find anyone like him anymore...and that's why i don't want to lose him because he makes me feel secured and allows me to be myself. I thought the other guy was my dream boy, haha. it turned out to be this one right here.