I'm talking to one of my close friends right now, Jeevan... He's asking why HE doens't talk to me as much anymore... Camille and April said the same thing I wasn't just thinking about it... other people CAN actually see what's going on.

The question: WHY? = Maybe because he's fed up with all his frickin friends asking about us... making bad jokes about him and me.... and about me in general. He is now in a mode of protecting his image..... hence, our friendship suffers.....

He didn't really care that much about what other people said before... he'd defend me against them.... But now... it seems that he's giving in... and it hurts..... badly.

Why does it always have to be soooooooooo f*cking hard? haha.... it's not even funny. Call me over sensitive... but it is how I am. I have insecurities... He fills it up... Haha... Jeeves is right... "He dug a hole in you" and it's getting deeper as he pulls away.....