"Put the old stuff away and in with the new" sounds very simple and easy - not for me, unfortunately. Moving to Canada made me stronger in so many ways. I could put more things behind me now than I could ever. There's one thing that I could not though - high school. A place that grew on me to be my second home - not because of the facilities or the huge 7-hectare land, but because of the people there. Sure, I was shunned by a lot of students because of my sexuality and all (not to mention the endless gossips about me) but I just can't stop caring for my batch mates for some reason. Haha... weird. My friends back then consisted of a lot of janitors, teachers, guards, staff members and some students.

Now what triggered this again? I was supposed to be done with this. Well, thanks to Facebook in connecting me with my elementary and high school friends, I am able to see the people I've spent my life with for about 14 years. The Metamorphosis '04 release (finally) that I couldn't attend and the David Ong's entry in the Xavier School Alumni '04 group about Garrik Yao that made me really sad. I wished I was physically there to give my support - but of course I got the news a little too late.

It makes me wonder - how's everybody doing? All I see are pictures, I chat with the selected few real friends I had and that's it. I look back thinking - what if I had the courage to do the things I can now? Seeing the reunion announcements for the class sections just made me wish that I could join them right now (nope, unfortunately, not gonna happen).

My life is different now. I'm a bit different, but I can't help but look back and wish that I was still there in that time frame where all the problems we had was school, a few family matters, and a few petty things.

Oh well - enough reminiscing, back to the present.